Calling all cars
Tuesday, February 26th, 2008, at far too late an hourWhat have I been doing for the last few hours, days, weeks? I’ve been writing letters and calling companies, governments, departments, divisions and issuing bodies, telling them to take me off their lists, to move me, to update or cancel me, to erase me. My life on one continent is shrinking, is being torn down, dusted off, shredded and recycled. All is being sold off, given away, chucked out, boxed in and loaded on a ship for ports unknown (or even better, if I pick the right shipping company: known).
I am busy, fully conscious of the passing days, the backward-ticking stopwatch, the anticipation and excitement building even as nostalgia and premature longing poke their noses from around the corner behind me. I feel lighter, unburdened and at times exhilarated by the rush of change. Sure, I do feel anxiety — a little, but not as much as you (or I) might think. It’s probably waiting for me on the other end, around some dark corner of the Barri Gòtic or in an eternal lineup at the Foreigner’s Office, but for now I’m too busy savouring my last moments in Montreal.
The weekend consisted of two beautiful sunny days, the reflecting snow and ice blinding me and burning a late-summer glow into my cheeks as I raced around a frozen lake, alone both days, free, gliding, flying. If my visa was so delayed, perhaps it was only to give me such a great gift: a perfect Montreal winter, one like we haven’t seen for years, maybe decades (before my time here, at any rate). So much snow, so little melting, such pleasant temperatures.
As of yesterday, I have a valid visa in my passport, aching for its duty to be fulfilled by an immigration officer’s stamp. The house sale is “in the bag”, the final handoff going down in a couple more weeks, so all else must be done by then. After that, I’ll take a deep breath, spend one homeless week here with friends and then it’s off over the ocean (flying 35,000 feet above my few remaining possessions as they slosh through the North Atlantic) to a new land, a new life, and a patiently-waiting love.
In Montreal, it never rains but it snows. (What do you know? It’s doing just that, right now.)